due to nt enough sleep the day before.. cause slp 15 mins nia.. i slept at 6.40am today in the morning again.. =.= till 1.10pm then wake up. wash up liao eat lunch.. td sms me callme meet him slack.. but i never go.. cause to me at homeand outside slack is still as boring as it is.. so i prefer staying at home.. watch some anime.. some guai tan.. then waiting for dinner time.. maybe later got play game with heye they all i guess... cause ytd zk got FYP.. jiang got tons of work to do.. and his moomoo too... so never bother him.. play with heye nia...

i tink i kena liao.. the curse... so call.. or i tink too much i also duno... as far as i know of.. the road ahead of me is getting narrower,deeper,harder,rougher into pitch darkness.. it makes me damn tired,damn pissed off, damn sad.. become like living zombie lidat.. only wake up,eat drink.washup,removin bowels,slack,game with fren.. is repeating and repeating... like robot programming liddat.. feeling so far from goals even i work so hard for it, feeling so empty inside me.. like a portion of myself or life is gone...

maybe wat i see and tink in my brain really came true... damn... if it is.. then let it be... i dont care le... nw what i have to do.. is to fucken go NS for fucken 2 years 1mth.. come out.. most probably i sign on.. get cash.. throw at shatec.. the 5k.. then stay liddat i guess...

i really need something to cheer me up liao.. frens or watever... i duno also.. wat i lack of doh...
really need to get stronger and live on happily!! i want to be happy!! I want to be xin fu.. like other ppl did.. i dont want everyday dull dull, boring boring... tats nt me... i want my fucking life back! :D nw currently working damn hard to get back my life... since attachment days...

k nth to write le.. T-T