ytd kor kor bring laptop go dao sao house... so no com use.. slp damn early.. wake up today at 7.45am.. then laze around dao 8.30am.. had breakfast.. then online de.. manage to be 47 lvl.. so sian.. lvl damn slow.. 1x exp.. lol...



then suddenly fone rang.. small auntie called.. she told me tat grandmum morning go to have her qi gong practice.. then on the way home fell down.. the ppl there hurried her to see doc.. thx god, slight bruises but her arm injured.. tink lack of calcium, the bone abit crack... Sad lo when i heard this bad news...


Since 1 years old to 7 years old, she brought me up, pei me play, pei me go kindergarden, buy me stuffs and doted me alot.. nw she old liao... Nt i dont want pei her, she had her own mindset.... my family always kena cast out de when they are happy and rich, no money liao then come ask us, cause papa eldest son ma...


Although they say adults de things we cant meddle with, but see her everytime cast out us, i also feel should i even bother to go see her anot, maybe once a while go see her and buy some stuffs for her if i got $, if nt juz go and see her lo.. Still must say thx to her... coz i was very sick during young, she cant slp propley, middle of the nite i will cough and vomit de... imagine that.. sick dao lidat...


i still remember when i young i dont like to go home.. i feel peace at old grandmum house.. nw new de liao.. they sold their flat and move to smaller 1.. the enviroment and ambience is so different... they had to move coz they no money le... no choice..


Papa once told me he hate grandpa alot.. but nw, he dont.. coz at first grandpa for nth kena jail.. then every1 despite papa and his younger bro and sis, kena say they are thief's son, pai kia child... he burdened this name for more then 10 years...

i know y papa never blame him le.. nt coz grandpa is his father, is coz he know tat he never do wrong.. truth is hidden, last time goverment is corrupted, so he blame the last time goverment then him...


nw they old le.. but from our view, they still doted the aunties then us.. even we kept so many secret for them, give them money to pay debts and papa even give them money to spend... i guess this is family responsibilty ba...


nw looking at my family, i see nth but hatred.. bro is still dwelling in his self world.... as i said earning so much give 400+ for mum per mth.. sis married out give 300...


U can say i useless ba, 20 liao.. knnbcb only hyatt days 500 bucks give mama 100, then nw waiting for army no allowance, even got also enough for my own nia.. nw nt working, save as much as possible, even skipped meals... Fuck army la.. if i no need army, i nw can go working finish my WDA 1 year and continue career le..


I want to work so much tat i rather be emo go cut hand, make myself ki siao, need see psy doc.. so no need army can work... I dont think i goin for Degree in SIM le.. For Culinary de. I rather the money they use for daily life...


If really i can have 3 wishes... i will choose this 3:



1) i wish my family and relatives peace and help each other..


2) i wish dat temple members will work together as a team, dont jealous or despite in regardless of the blessings they get.. i believe every1 is equal treated in god's eye...


3) i wish i can dont need go NS and work and find my life partner


Woo.. damn long hor.. Compo sia.. well tats all i want to say for today.. later going to grandmum house see her condition, pei pei her, then maybe come back home later cont gaming chatting with biao, heye and td ba.. i guess.. home day for me :D


kitty