wake up at 8 today.. cook carrot cake eat myself..then gaming dao 1+ td call me out.. so i went out.. eat lunch with him.. then buy some durian home to eat and give mama coz she love to... after tat bao sheng come me house.. we play tai di chit chat dao 5+ he went home and td went home.. but tey did try my carrot cake :D

i say hao go sch with td later at nite.. but when there.. lmfao.. sch change schedule so long ago.. he didnt even know.. so is nt today is tml.. so we hate back home.. is drizzling.. so we took 911 to 825 then walk to 834 had his dinner with da kuaiz and gary.. xiao di and brandon later join in follow by xi min, zl and zl gf..

we went to 835 void deck slack.. i play dai di.. lose le.. then they join in.. cozloser out.. so i went psping.. till 9.25pm.. we go home respectively... so nw bath hao le blogging... coz really nth to do..

today im damn pissed and sad... i didnt do anything.. yet i got scolded by mum.. again she ki siao.. so i dont care.. after my dinner before i went sch with td.. i say at my door step " if u hate me so much.. bro and sis are better then me, then y born me out.. since im blue black dao jialat jialat.. u should have killed me tat time.. and nw i am wat i am nw.. part of the blame is on them." after tat.. i went out to meet td as promise...

i wonder y... when i treat ppl nice.. they say i lied..i cheated.. want to help them.. got fucked deep shit instead... parents or frens... all same.. Am i tat bad?/useless?/jackass?/pussy son of a bitch?

If this world cant contain me.. then i shall go back to my old days... as wat the angel saved me.. sounds crazy but i'll try to gain back wat he is.. and as promised.. i still walk back to darkness.. cause the light is only for gay righteous so call forgive and forget.. but i didnt see it in them.. religion to me is nth anymore.. offically declared back to them...

i really miss the days when i talk to ppl, they know hw i feel and i hope i can know wat they feel too.. ways and means to torture myself try to make them know i am a different person and making them happy, feeling they at least got a fren/family members tat can talk to,rely on.. old personality doesnt stick.. a leapord can change it spots.. believe me... i've changed totally.. pls fucken see the history of my self from sec 4 till nw..is total 720 degree change...

u all caused me to choose tis way... i tried nt to fall.. but u guys is pushing me to the edge of falling back.. to the same damn,sick,crazy,bloody way.. so if u want it.. i'll juz say come on..i'm rdy to strike when u r..


your time awaits and the clock is ticking off your end..

maverick ganarial signing off...